Well, to put it shortly, I dream of the life of a stay at home normal mom. What I mean by that is, waking up each day and sitting up in bed and thinking, "Humm, what will I do today?" or "What kinds of things could myself and the kids enjoy today?" or "What kind of food could I cook today?" or "What kind of work out can I do today?" or "Which book could I read for enjoyment purposes today?"
Instead I wake up each day to the thought of, "Is it morning already?" Then, its rush to the shower, get breakfast for kids, make lunch for self and husband, get baby bottle, get dressed, plan out which books I need for school, Oh yeah what can I throw in the crock pot for dinner? Oh I have to dress the baby, Joe have you put your shoes on? Man I need to change that laundry from last night. Get baby cereal, get shoes on, out the door!
8 hours later. . .
Come home, house is a wreak, what do you want for dinner? It's 6:30, well we can melt some cheese on a tortilla? Alright, teeth brushed pajamas on, story and scriptures, prayers, kids in bed. Oh the sink is full, there are toys and clothes all over the floor along with books and cereal. I have 5 chapters to read, an article to find, a paper to start and 2 tests to study for. But I put all that off and read everybody's blogs because that is more fun!!
Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for what I have, and I know a busy life is better than a life with nothing. I thank my lucky stars each day I have a supportive husband who helps out and keeps me uplifted with his jovialness(is that a word?),. . . his love for life! I am very fortunite to have 2 beautiful boys who love their mama and they are healthy. And last but not least of all I am thankful I am given this opportunity to earn my degree, because not many people get that chance.
I know one day I will get the sterio typical stay at home mom life where I can plan PTA activities, and ward carnivals and garden and can and do family history and make apple pie and homemade playdough and just go to the craft store just to walk around a craft store. So until then, and for now I will just consult my appt book. ( and count the days till May!)
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Sooo.... I just had my last day of work last Friday. I haven't not worked (or been a full-time student) since ... summer of my sophomore year in high school. I know so well that feeling of walking into the house at 6pm, throwing down your bags, and going straight to the kitchen to figure out dinner. I am now a stay-at-home mom (I do some freelance stuff, but there's nothing to go into an office for). I have to say, it's kind of nice. But it is interesting to see what mental habits I've developed over the past several years of working/schooling. Things like "I don't want to plan that for Saturday, because it's my only free day." or habitually going to stand in front of my closet to figure out what clothes I should lay out for the next morning, so I can sleep an extra 5 minutes. It feels like such a luxury to be able to do this - even though we'll be poorer. At the same time, I recognize that the days spent at home trying to keep kids occupied and the house from falling/burning/flooding are ridiculously harder than the days I spent at work- because at least then, I was on my own schedule with no one constantly yelling at me to bring them something or [fill in the blank]. Anyway, I guess life is hard and wonderful regardless of where you are in it. Congrats to you for going after your degree. It's hard to be a working (studying) mom.
This may be the longest comments I've ever posted on a blog...
Suck it up!
Wow, you are busy ;) Is there really going to be a day where I go to a craft store just to walk around? This is going to be interesting :)
I'm actually planning on going back to school after my last is in school full day. So in 6 or so years, I will have to ask you for pointers.
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